I've been thinking about control, and how much we humans value and yearn to have it at all times. It's empowering. It feels good and brings satisfaction. But I was chatting with my sister in law about how harsh it feels when you truly start to feel and realize the hardships that often happen when things in life are simply not in our hands to control. Some things always are out of our control, and other things we think we have control over, and then realize that in the blink of an eye, that simply isn't the case. I have come to know of the harshness of not having the kind of control over so many things in my life (starting at a younger age) and it still causes me anxiety and pain to realize there are more things that I lose grip on. Learning to overcome those things and let God take over the areas you cannot, is such a learning process---one that I learn over and over again.
Examples of things so many people do have control over, and others do not:
*There are women who can get pregnant how, and when they would like.
*There are people who want for nothing and don't know what it's like to wonder how they"ll feed their kids next month.
*There are people who have healthy bodies that stay strong and capable.
*There are people who see justice served how they would like it to.
*There are people who have visible talents and are adorned because of it.
*There are people who can get married right away
*There are people who can eat a billion calories every day, and still be as thin as a toothpick.
*There are people who don't try in school, but still get great grades.
I think you get the idea. Some of these things I mentioned apply to me personally, in the fact that I have little to NO control over the situation. And it's hard to accept. It's hard to feel alone, forgotten, confused, jealous, angry, annoyed, resentful, sad, devastated, etc.
But the one person who always has control, is Christ. And *I* can control my relationship with Him, *I* can control how I let Him be in control of my areas of struggle. *I* can come to accept what I cannot have power and ability over, and let Him take my frustrations and turn them into calmness. *I* can let Him wipe my tears and wash my tear stained cheeks with His infinite wisdom and love.
As we come to understand this concept of no control, it doesn't mean that life in unfair or full of disappointment. It can feel that way, and those feelings are valid and real. I still struggle with feelings of pain with having no control over the purest desires of my heart. BUT, thank goodness that bc of Christ, He will take over, and guide us to a better place. #jesustakethewheel
Examples of things so many people do have control over, and others do not:
*There are women who can get pregnant how, and when they would like.
*There are people who want for nothing and don't know what it's like to wonder how they"ll feed their kids next month.
*There are people who have healthy bodies that stay strong and capable.
*There are people who see justice served how they would like it to.
*There are people who have visible talents and are adorned because of it.
*There are people who can get married right away
*There are people who can eat a billion calories every day, and still be as thin as a toothpick.
*There are people who don't try in school, but still get great grades.
I think you get the idea. Some of these things I mentioned apply to me personally, in the fact that I have little to NO control over the situation. And it's hard to accept. It's hard to feel alone, forgotten, confused, jealous, angry, annoyed, resentful, sad, devastated, etc.
But the one person who always has control, is Christ. And *I* can control my relationship with Him, *I* can control how I let Him be in control of my areas of struggle. *I* can come to accept what I cannot have power and ability over, and let Him take my frustrations and turn them into calmness. *I* can let Him wipe my tears and wash my tear stained cheeks with His infinite wisdom and love.
As we come to understand this concept of no control, it doesn't mean that life in unfair or full of disappointment. It can feel that way, and those feelings are valid and real. I still struggle with feelings of pain with having no control over the purest desires of my heart. BUT, thank goodness that bc of Christ, He will take over, and guide us to a better place. #jesustakethewheel
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